#ninetyone.

to erni,

as a friend to hear what you had to go tru was all uncessary. if i were you, i would have walk away a long time ago. a true love one wouldn't bear to see you go through all this unecessary, excruciating pain. if i were that somebody that you call a boyfriend, i would have corrected myself and my FAMILY. nobody, and i really mean NOBODY with the highest rank can ever put you down to this level. and that family is nothing but insecurities. but i respect you for still being respectful towards the elders eventhough they were being arrogantly judgeful. nabi Muhammad s.a.w. once said to his sahabat that the people whom cries in excruciating agony in their graves are the once whom gossips and criticize others. trust me all they did was to put themselves way way way way way down below you and thank God you didn't join them down below by retaliating back. as rage is consuming me while im typing , i can't help but to feel the achingness in my heart for you. i pray to God that she would realise soon and repent soon enough before it's too late or someone can knock some sense into her. as angry as i am towards all this, i also can't help to feel SAD for her.. maybe she hasn't been taught enough. one finger pointed to you erni, is four fingers pointing back at her disabillities. and another five fingers from the other hand pointing back at her for everything that she lacks. her performance just goes to show how badly insecure she is and the whole family. i think even the most poorest or the most uneducated has to be treated with respect and dignity. but you erni, need not treat her with any for she does not deserve even the slightest bit of respect from the poorest of poor and the most uneducated.
to end this long, long, looong entry, i would like to say tha nobody can help you but yourself. so please erni, wake up. love yourself first before anyone. how perfect do they want you to be? really.

i know you're reading, and no i don't even care. not even the slightest bit for people like doesnt know the meaning of respecting others and their feeling.